The Uncool

Don't come find me

I left you sitting on front stoops
stairs descending into street cement
stepping on cigarette butts because
I was sick of seeing you shine like
it was acceptable to wait and fade
into my memory

dwelling as statues, still
existing only leaving
taking late night walks – somewhere under streetlights
because there was no one
left to visually own you
since no one else saw you differently

from one dimensional sorrowful subjects of sight
sons bathing in light rays off
mirror iris’ reflection
graphic shirt prints “This is that new shit” and
old kids born after the trends been set
I can smell the desire, the demise
of their own odor
they were clean

cut-ting glances past me to the next


Well don’t remember me cuz I’ll be the kid
eaving home at 3a.m. when no one’s around
with ice on my teeth because
conversations about style kept calling cavities
and I just wanted to numb the pain of
castigating tight pants and color confused nikes
of this America
say goodbye to this American
I’m history
put my teeth on the curb and X
me out

Please God
or
whoever is up there,

eclipse the moon
rain clouds blot out these stars
white light has become too bright to see hope
floating like a prayer stated once too many times
purgatorial neglect
lies at the cost of self for
stitched seams
and I just want to rip
the runway with box cutters…
tear that shit apart

so thank you

for that blink,
that second you gave me
and the eternity you left so I can feel
like a ghost and wander
still translucent
unable to
be shined upon.

Fear of flying..

Afraid to love
Afraid to open up
Afraid to trust
Afraid to believe

Fear of flying..

Scared to love
Scared to be lied to
Scared to let the walls tumble down

Fear of flying..

Paranoid that I will get hurt
Paranoid that it's all the same
Paranoid that things will never change

Fear of flying..

Knowing that it's not right in front of me
I'm not afraid of taking my time
You may think I'm losing time
But what you don't know.. Is that I'm doing things right

This time will be different
This time I AM different
This time I'm taking it for myself
This time I'm completely happy with myself..
And nothing else matters anymore
Not even..

The
Fear
Of
Flying..

Someday...

Someday

Oneday

You will find that guy who is gonna change your life
Just wait and see, true love is waiting out there for you.

The words he speaks will melt your heart away
His touches will give you goosebumps
The scent of his cologne will drive you insane
You will hold him and never let go

When it's cloudy, you will see sunshine
When it's freezing, you will feel warmth
When it rains, you won't use an umbrella

Nothing will matter when you are in his presence,
In his arms,
In his strong embrace..

Nothing will come between you two when all you have is love everything else is extra..

The best things in life are free..

Alone

I’m alone…

And I like it.

I enjoy the peace of mind, there’s nothing like it

Conversations with my shoes—they do most of the talkin

The dialogue you can hear, at least

But the convos are far better with my mind

The talks that she and I have can only be achieved…when I’m alone.

I’m alone…

And I wouldn’t have it any other way

But it’s not like a have a choice, I’m alone every day—

Every night

Walking under the street lights, dazing into the eyes of the moon—

I hope she comes back to me soon

But until then, I’m alone—there’s not much I can do

Try to get around to get my mind off of you

But that doesn’t do much—they’re not quite my style

I don’t get down

the way they get down

And so I’m alone

And I miss you dearly

They say that space is good, but they overlooked this…

Clearly

I’m an independent man, but that doesn’t mean I don’t need you

Because the fact is that I do, you have consumed me

I used to breathe you, bleed you, sleep you…eat you

I miss those days, those nights are far out of reach now

Now I can only enjoy you temporarily for a time here—a time there…

It isn’t quite fair, but these are the sacrifices we make…

We’re too much alike—not enough sense of urgency,

Because we both have a firm grip on life…

We both know what it takes to make it work,

And so we do it

No questions asked, barely any second thoughts

You know I gotta work, I know you gotta work

And so we understand…and maybe that’s the problem

When does sacrifice become an excuse?

When is enough, enough and we refuse to take the abuse?

Everyone has needs, and I hope you’re not playing me…

Playing with mine

Heartbroken I will be,

Heartless even, maybe

Adjustments made, plans out the window,

But at least I won’t have to start from scratch because I know how it feels

To be alone

When it’s as cold inside as it is out

And there’s no one to hold on to for warmth

Except yourself…

Self-reliance is my name, and maybe you were just a crutch

Because

Now you’re just a convenience, I don’t need you all that much

And I know you feel the same, so we see each other when we can

Not because we’re dangerously in love anymore

We’re not 12-years-old anymore

Grow up

But really the only way to do that

The only way you know you’ve made it

Is when you look around and see no one there…

And smile to the air.

You never last forever

Happy endings are for stories that haven't ended

I know you don't exist
Stop asking me to let you in
Stop trying to make me feel you
I don't want you anymore
You hurt me too many times

Why everytime I find you
You always leave?

So don't come back if it's temporary
I will let you in if you promise to stay forever
But it's never forever with you
You only stay for a few months

So love...don't come back
I don't believe in you anymore

Now, the story has ended.

Who will ever know

It kills her inside
But she smiles with deep pride
They don't know, what she feels inside
They try to make her open her eyes

Her heart has froze
She still loves him though
Her soul turned cold
And she doesn't know
Will she love again
Or stay alone

They will never know
They will never know
She will never let it show
As she continues to smile with deep pride
No one.
Will.
Ever.
Know.
What lies...behind her eyes.

Dear Warmth

Where have you gone?
I miss you daily.
I reminisce about feeling you at dawn...
comfort...a lost cause now.

You left me...

stranded, naked, disdain.
Please don't misunderstand me, it's not that I can't survive...
Because baby, I'm alive.
I have to be...to be able to feel this pain...
Warmth how can you be so vain?

To come and go as you please...
Disregard everyone, only fulfill YOUR needs.
I was on my knees...
Warmth, I thought I needed you more than ever.

This was not a one-night stand, not a sexual endeavor...
when we cuddle, I take in your scent
smelled like forever.

At least that's what I thought...
now you're nothing more than a thought...

Just leave...
Warmth, just leave me alone!
Why can't I leave you alone...
distance got me thinking...it's not the same on the phone.

You're out of reach now...
far removed from my fingertips...
far removed from my lips...
far removed from my kiss...
it wasn't supposed to end like this...

Dear Warmth, I don't need you anymore.





Mr. Purple is not a poet.

Nowhere

My mind races.

I see you. I feel you.

You're gone.

My hands tingle.

My heart feels you.

Where are you?