Dreams- an unconscious thought of how u wish things would actually be.
So in this case.. I was having nightmares. Or maybe just a nightmare because it's the same one over and over.
You would think I would grow bored of it already,
At least grow immune to it, after a year and sooo many months have come and gone.
I didn't feel as if the pain had weakened over time.
Instead, I felt that I've become strong enough to bear it.
I go days, even weeks, without thinking about it at all.
Then.. Something always takes me right back.
I don't want to think of it, but I must remember it.
Sometimes I worry that it's all slipping away.
That my mind would go blank someday, and I would not be able to remember...
For some reason.. that I don't yet understand, I can't get myself to forget.
Regardless of that hole in my chest,
That burning feeling I get when I think of it,
The nights I miss you like crazy,
The days I remember.. Good times I wish to forget..
The nights I try to sleep while I fight back my tears,
Tonight I will let myself cry..
Tomorrow is a brand new day..
FOR THE BIRDS - It occurred to me as I stared out at the feeders today, that there are way too many bluejays, and too many chickadees, scarfing up the black-oiled sunflower ...
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